I'm trying mom.
I really am.
But it's hard.
You're not here and that part of me went with you.
People keep telling me that it will come back....that I just need time.
God, I am so fucking sick of hearing that phrase "You just need time".
No, time is not what I "need".
I know you wouldn't want me to be like this.
Not now. Not anymore.
"It's ok", you would say..."It's time"...."Mikey, you need to move on"...."Please, don't make a fuss".
But this fuss is all I have left.
I love you mom.